Tuesday, March 31, 2009

bOtHeRiNg fEeLin 'n' tHoUgHt


Ive been thinking alot lately...

I cant even sleep...

My thought has been thinking alot bout myself n my life...

The emptiness feeling inside keep bothering me so frequent...

All this while I have been living indepedently...

With beloved family...

Close friends..

and Nice friends..

Suppose it is enough to cover the emptiness inside...

But I just cant control the nature of human...

It is juz out of my capability...

The things that I can do now is to find what I am good at...

I love singing... but juz not good at it.. (it sounds funny..haha)

There I still need achievement and recognition...

In study... in my leisure too...

But still... the success is juz empty if it cant be shared...

Yup.. it happens alot to me...


Why do I keep falling to the wrong person...

First... a person who doesnt appreciate my thought n feeling...

Next... a person who keep confusing about its own wants n needs..

Then... a person who does not that into me...

Now... a person who is may be (seriously.. i dunno coz never told anything yet)..

or totally doesnt feel as I am...

Wish there is sum1 to comfort and being there for me..

whenever I need...

I would do the same thing too to the person...


Whatever my thought and feeling is..

I am still glad because I still can live in good and peace environment..

Compared to the other places and other persons in this world...

There are wars... Hungerness... Disease... Deaths...Cruelty...


Still so grateful in this shoe...

I hope this bothering feeling n thought will wash away soon...

by the presence of someone in my life...

or it juz does in nature.....


xoxo

-cyfulnizam-







6 comments:

  1. emptiness is kinda a haunted feeling tht can create shit if u can't get over it..
    seriously, even thoughi slalu dikecewakn by sumbody that i really love, its doesnt mean that u have to quit....
    kite akn jupe lots of people..that kite mgkin dikecewakn or mngecewakn org lain...
    tp yg penting, all of those thing will make us keep alive, strong n mature....
    u hve to face it!!!

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  2. thats life
    dont be so bothered about it
    make urself busy
    find happiness
    enjoy every moments
    even though its not perfect
    cos perfection is over-rated

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  3. ive tried my best to live this life to the fullest..
    sumtimes it stil comes to bother me...
    always fall into the wrong persons..
    huh..

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  4. we dont hve any better choice other thn keep trying....i had fallen for the wrong person again n again b4... i gave every single thing untill its left nothing fot me now...
    yet, i refuse to fall badly!!

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  5. yea..
    sumtimes it juz out of our capability..
    it is human nature...

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  6. herm..just enjoy ur life..nizam..i nye blog dah leh komen dah..hehe..btw..good luck present esok..hehe

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