*the apocalypse*

"every starting will eventually comes to the ending"

Untuk ak pepatah ni ade btolnye..
coz it happens to me recently.
I was a delightful and my days were full of chocolate moments after Ive met this one person. haha. It felt like I was pull again to the ray of light after ive been awhile in the dark n alone..
but it was so yesterday..
Im not feeling anything like it recently..
yup im back to those dark days again..

We were juz fren.. and nuttin more than dat. impossible to have any kind of special relationship.
but still this person has made my days..
everything has changed now..
I dunno why.. We used to have a meaningful and nice conversation..
but now we only speak like barbarians..vulgar n annoying..
stupid and gross jokes will be the only idea to make us laugh..
huh..

we were not updating with each others anymore juz recently..

texting? haha. we used to text each other everyday evetho there's nutting much to say.. care to one another.. "tgh buat pe? dh mkn?"
but now we will only text if there are important things.
sometimes not at all in a week.. huh.
ak pon xtau kenape jd camtu..
kalo ak text takot nnt die xreply..
tp ak mmg nk text die slalu sbnrnye..

calling? apetah lg.. ive started to try not to call this person.. after being told directly by receiver not in mood to take my call..ive asked y? but being reply there is just no reason..and the best part is this person was laughing telling me that it is enjoyable to let my call hasnt been taken on the next day we were meeting.. wutafuck was dat?
i really need to talk to sum1 kot at dat moments..urghh.
tp xpelah its okay.. it is hard to predict someone's character.

it is really hurt that this person doesnt understand the word appreciation..
appreciation towards time..i will always try to find free time to spend together.
but sumtime it was wasted because this person's priority will always go to the phone whenever we were together.. huh.. it is painful to see this person was busy texting and receiving call for quite sumtime whenever i was there..hello.im still here with u and few other frens kot..
probably i was jealous? may be.. haha. i dunno.
Ive put an effort to see u kot. but u juz blew it off.. quite often. if u only know how to appreciate..adoiyai.

BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS I DONT BLAME THIS PERSON TOTALLY. I DID WRONGFUL BEHAVIOR 2. WE ARE JUZ HUMAN. MAKE MISTAKES AND STILL LEARNING.



tp ape2 pon ak syg kot towards this person.
not cinta..haha. i dunno. but mmg syg sgt sbg kawan..
uve made my days. i juz hope a little appreciation frm u..
hopefully everything will be back juz like when we first started to know each other..

we never know what will happens next.

xoxo
-cyfulnizam-