bOtHeRiNg fEeLin 'n' tHoUgHt

Ive been thinking alot lately...

I cant even sleep...

My thought has been thinking alot bout myself n my life...

The emptiness feeling inside keep bothering me so frequent...

All this while I have been living indepedently...

With beloved family...

Close friends..

and Nice friends..

Suppose it is enough to cover the emptiness inside...

But I just cant control the nature of human...

It is juz out of my capability...

The things that I can do now is to find what I am good at...

I love singing... but juz not good at it.. (it sounds funny..haha)

There I still need achievement and recognition...

In study... in my leisure too...

But still... the success is juz empty if it cant be shared...

Yup.. it happens alot to me...

Why do I keep falling to the wrong person...

First... a person who doesnt appreciate my thought n feeling...

Next... a person who keep confusing about its own wants n needs..

Then... a person who does not that into me...

Now... a person who is may be (seriously.. i dunno coz never told anything yet)..

or totally doesnt feel as I am...

Wish there is sum1 to comfort and being there for me..

whenever I need...

I would do the same thing too to the person...

Whatever my thought and feeling is..

I am still glad because I still can live in good and peace environment..

Compared to the other places and other persons in this world...

There are wars... Hungerness... Disease... Deaths...Cruelty...

Still so grateful in this shoe...

I hope this bothering feeling n thought will wash away soon...

by the presence of someone in my life...

or it juz does in nature.....

xoxo

-cyfulnizam-